psalm 13

i really enjoy teaching, but there are times when it just takes a toll on your soul.  It is such a great, beneficial, sanctifying process to chew on a particular passage and then be able to present what the Lord has shown you.  That being said, the next 2 weeks i am going to be teaching on psalms of lament and the imprecatory psalms... i.e. psalms about depression and anger.  This week has been difficult in preparing for psalm 13.  This isn't a set of verses  to be understood as much as felt.  It isn't a theological problem David is having, but he is acknowledging where his heart is at.  Spending time in this psalm is both freeing and difficult.  Freeing in that i am reminded that we are to pour out our heart to Jesus, no matter what we are feeling; but difficult in that this week i have done more time doing that then typical.  I have had many of these same feelings that i thought were dormant come to the surface and has been a source of prayer this week. 
   I don't like acknowledging feelings of sadness, i would rather just talk about the good things, sports, anything really.  I spend a lot of my time talking with people about their difficulties that it becomes easy to not acknowledge my own.  It has been a good week in just that God has lead me to a place of honesty about my condition with Him.  I would rather be in a place of overwhelming joy, but i feel spending time exploring David's lament has given words to mine.